I have discovered that in the midst of a lot of darkness, you can always find light.....if you are looking for it. There has been a lot of turmoil in the last few weeks in parts of my life. Our pastor abruptly resigned, and we have since found out the reasons. The entire situation has created quite a divide in our congregation. Satan is certainly at work as he attacks the body of believers. Then, we lost a very dear friend this week to brain cancer. As a matter of fact, he passed away 4 years to the day after surgeons eliminated most of the cancer from my body. Irony. Survivor's guilt. Sadness. Darkness It is very easy to sit back and ask "why" when there is so much sadness, destruction in families, division within the church, and cancer. Trust me....I've had plenty of time in my life to ask "why".
But, "why" typically solves nothing. It leads to bitterness and anger. Searching for that answer will eat me up. So, I am holding on to the one thing I have....hope and faith that God is in control. He has a plan so much greater than any of ours. He is in control in the midst of turmoil and sadness. He is the light that we can cling to...the light at the end of the tunnel. As a young child, when I would ask my mom hard questions, she always told me to "put it on your list" of things to ask Jesus when I get to heaven. And, if "why" is still important then, I can ask it then. But I don't think I'll care then.
Rather than hold on to the negative things in my life, I am striving to find the positive things, to trust in HIS plan, and to appreciate the blessings that I've been given. I CHOOSE to worship Him in ALL things. I am blessed beyond measure. I WILL find the light....because the light is my SAVIOR.