Abandoned

This has been a really hard week.  Without going in to much detail, I will say this....I have learned a lot about what family is and about who in my life is most important (Cory and my girls).  I have learned to guard my heart because I have felt very abandoned by people I thought would always be by my side.  I have felt what it's like to have a "love one" keep score for years and how it feels to not be defended by someone you love.  I have also been reminded that in all situations, God can work.  He is using a less than perfect situation to make me stand on my own two feet. 

My Sunday School class has been doing a study called "If Want to Walk on Water, You've Got to Get Out of the Boat."  The first week, I came home feeling like God was speaking to me.  The lesson was about taking a step of faith and not looking back/down, and I related that to a possible major change in my immediate family (possible job change for Cory that might involve moving).  Now, these changes in my extended family this week are going to cut some ties with the boat and will hopefully make it easier to get out of the boat.  I HAVE to find good in this.  The good will help heal my heart.

I'm picking up my girls today.  They called last night and this morning crying to come home.  While some clearly disagree with my decision to let them come home, Cory and I agree that there is no reason for them to stay somewhere else if they desire to be at home.  They are always welcome in their own home. I will just say that I'm ready to hug my girls and to receive their love.  I have missed them!

My prayers this week....that God would soften my heart and foster forgiveness both from me and toward me....that God would provide safe travel....that God's plan would be clear in the area of job/home for us....that God would continue to work in the lives of the mission team from our church in Ecuador right now and that He would bring them home safely.....that God's perfect will would be done in the lives of my family.